Reflected thoughs around this meltdown.

Alright, so I'm doing a comeback as an extremely underdog blogger (that is, no one reads it, and I don't earn money, such a waste of time, really) after a wish from my host dad. It seems that he has big dreams for the future, whereas one of them involves me having a meltdown and going to rehab, all during a school break.

Guess what? Challenge accepted. I do make dreams come true.

So, what is a meltdown? I asked the Internet, which seems like a legit way to do it in 2014. And Urban Dictionary always seems to have an answer, so here we go;

"1. Describes what happens when a person freaks out, cracks, loses control of themselves. Life - reality at large- becomes overwhelming. They just can't deal with it all. The person may act out, withdraw, become emotional, run, etc... 

 "I was sick and on this one day I had an exam, an essay due, a news print deadline, multiple other commitments, 3 people hogging my limited time, others screwing with my head plus, life outside of college was spiraling out of control. I became overwhelmed and went into meltdown." --If meltdown happens to you or someone you know, just remember; It's not the nicest thing, but it happens. Step back & regroup. That's all you can do."

Okay, now that we have settled what a meltdown actually is, I've come to realize a few things. There are a few reasons why I haven't already had this meltdown. First, I'm too solution oriented. If I feel like I haven't studied enough for my exams, I study harder. When my acne started breaking out again for real after my exams, I went to the doctor and got medication for it. When I miss old friends, I give them a phone call. Second, I don't have enough to do to become overwhelmed. But have no fear, I've figured this out. This is the plan:

1. I have four exams this spring (opposed to the two that I had this fall). One of them is math. I think a meltdown may be approaching solely because of that. AND I may have to spend some classes with high school juniors to learn math at one of the Oslo high schools. Because my brain doesn't work well with numbers. I'm the opposite of excited.

2. I'm getting a job. I've applied for serveral jobs as a sponsor. That must be pretty stressful. If I get it, that is. And if I don't, I've heard that applying for a bunch of jobs and not getting them is quite overwhelming, too.

3. I'm working some shifts per week at a hospital as a volunteer. I'm only assuming that must be pretty stressful, too.

4. This is the most exhausting part: I'm going to go out more and hang out more with people. I've been out every weekend since I came back from Christmas break, and I feel like I've already filled the socializing quota for the rest of the year. Keep dragging the introvert out, and a meltdown is ought to come!

Conclusion: A meltdown sometime during 2014 is not unlikely. I will work hard to make this happen. Maybe this is sort of like metabolism. For my friend, Mina, it's easy peasy. She can eat whatever she wants and not gain a grain. Me? I gain calories only by breathing. And maybe with meltdowns, it's like I'm Mina, super resistant, and for Miley and Courtney Love, it's like they gain meltdowns only by breathing. But I will not judge, because we never really know the truth and the true story behind. Maybe both Ms. Cyrus and Ms. Love did work really hard for their meltdowns. 
 
So, I titled my blog "2013 was Miley's meltdown year. 2014 is Ida's". Hopefully, I'm not lying. But, I must say, although I don't really like attention, I would like to have this year as MY meltdown year and my meltdown year only. There is, however, one person who doesn't understand this. 

 

Justin Drew Bieber. Neither does he respect the law, nor me. Somebody do something about this man/boy/person. He could at least have scheduled 2015 as his meltdown year. Not cool.